My brain has decided not to cooperate. It’s happened before, and it’ll happen again, just as it’s happening now.
No matter how much I want it, getting my head into any writing at all has been impossible for most of the last two weeks. And since I’m only well and truly happy when I’m writing regularly, most of the last two weeks have sucked.
I might be able to bash my head against the keyboard for a few hours, but I’ll get nothing useable out of them. Trying to write feels like trying to put out a fire with an empty bucket–I don’t get anywhere, and I end up a burned-out cinder.
Which is why, after years of dealing with this shit myself, I came up with the best advice/rule/whatever for people who struggle with the same shit…
Sometimes the best response to a bad situation really is to say: “Fuck It.”
When I get up, get working, and feel an impossible day ahead, I Just Say No.
Not gonna happen.
I get up and go do something else, take the day off, and find some way to distract myself until it’s time to go to bed. Then I try again the next day.
I get the same amount of stuff done by saying “fuck it” as I do trying to struggle through the day–that is, nothing at all–but I don’t get the gut-wrenching feeling of exhaustion and misery from trying and failing to do the impossible.
All of which is to say that I’ve spent most of the last couple of weeks reading, watching television, or playing video games and recording myself doing it.
Today feels a little easier–I managed to write this, at least–so here’s hoping my brain’s getting its shit together. I doubt I’ll get much more done, but hey, fuck it.